Favs again

my favorite anything and everything this past week were:

Before the Deluge-Jackson Browne
Strings that tie to you- Jon Brion
(What's so funny 'bout) peace, love and understanding- Elvis Costello

Langhorne slim last night, wow.
Estee's birthday party.
Brittany's faceplant.
carrie peirce.

and If you're ever exploring the world wide web:
http://www.crackerfarm.com/
www. sublimestitching.com
https://twitter.com/Mackhowe


cheers
-mack

I've repented for my sins against the earth

"Some of them were dreamers
And some of them were fools
Who were making plans and thinking of the future
With the energy of the innocent
They were gathering the tools
They would need to make their journey back to nature
While the sand slipped through the opening
And their hands reached for the golden ring
With their hearts they turned to each other's heart for refuge
In the troubled years that came before the deluge

Some of them knew pleasure
And some of them knew pain
And for some of them it was only the moment that mattered
And on the brave and crazy wings of youth
They went flying around in the rain
And their feathers, once so fine, grew torn and tattered
And in the end they traded their tired wings
For the resignation that living brings
And exchanged love's bright and fragile glow
For the glitter and the rouge
And in a moment they were swept before the deluge

Now let the music keep our spirits high
And let the buildings keep our children dry
Let creation reveal it's secrets by and by
By and by--
When the light that's lost within us reaches the sky

Some of them were angry
At the way the earth was abused
By the men who learned how to forge her beauty into power
And they struggled to protect her from them
Only to be confused
By the magnitude of the fury in the final hour
And when the sand was gone and the time arrived
In the naked dawn only a few survived
And in attempts to understand a thing so simple and so huge
Believed that they were meant to live after the deluge

Now let the music keep our spirits high
And let the buildings keep our children dry
Let creation reveal it's secrets by and by
By and by--
When the light that's lost within us reaches the sky"
-Before the Deluge by Jackson Browne

Favs

My favorites this past week:

Mama you been on my mind- Jeff buckley
Be set free- Langhorne Slim
Dos Cosas Ciertas- Ozomatli

EGG NOG IS BACK.
Highland hall candle light vigil.
Synchronicity sleepover.
Rainn Wilsons's twitter.

"It's a long way down, but I feel alright"

Every song i hear,
Every conversation i have,
Resonates with my heart.
I don't know yet what the right or wrong thing to do is,
all i know is i will not allow fear or loneliness to sway my decisions.
I do not need fair-weather friendships
I do not need your opinion.
I am just trying to sit. With God. And figure out what it means to "follow my heart."
I hated that phrase until it became true to me. and i hope it becomes true for you.

My non-poetic happenings in life include
Spending a lot of time on the back porch.
Spending a lot of time in the library...and enjoying it.
And spending a lot of time with my mother.
She puts me at ease.
I have been escaping Azusa every chance i get, just to remind myself there
is a whole world outside of this fast paced, demanding, dramatic, campus life.
I have many more decisions to make, and lots of planning to do.
Good thing God can only be with me in the present, otherwise i'd be living in the past or the future...anywhere but right now.

What a beautiful God there must be

In my jumbled wishlist of a prayer
I asked for someone to listen
For a moment with you
For some clarity
For my appetite back
For reconciliation

and today
i experienced all of those things.
Call it an answer, luck, or wishful thinking,
But now i don't feel so alone.

it's cold

I. miss. everyone.
I couldn't cry
& i couldn't cry
Then Today in class i cried, on my bike i cried, everywhere.
I have to leave for a long time. And this makes me cry too.

on being

"it is in solitude that we discover that being is more important than having, and that we are more than the result of our efforts." -Henry nouwen

This morning my mom cried as she read me a letter from her last check-up at the doctor saying that her viral load (the amount of Disease in her blood) is undetectable after 5 months of interferon treatment. I have many things to be grateful for today.